My life motherfucking sucks! What the fuck am I supposed to do? Just fucking sit there and take it, like a man? Am I just supposed to not cry and show any remorse for what I’ve done? No, it does NOT fucking matter at all! It does not matter what I think because everyone knows the truth. I am 30 MOTHERFUCKING YEARS OLD AND I AM A GODDAMNED VIRGIN! I’M JUST EVERYONE’S SOURCE OF RIDICULE AND SO MANY WOMEN THAT HAVE GOTTEN SOME FUCKING RIDICULE ME! JESUS MOTHERFUCKING CHRIST! I AM SO FUCKING SICK OF THIS SHIT! I CAN’T EVEN TAKE A SHOWER EVERY DAY AND HAVEN’T BEEN ABLE TO DO IN OVER 6 YEARS!
I can’t even lay down in bed! The rest of the goddamned world that gets some always loves themselves and I do not! Nothing I do matters for shit!
Why should I kill myself? I am ALREADY dead! I have been dead for 6 years, ever since I moved out to Crawford County from Erie County, here in Pennsylvania.
My behaviors are unstable and one staff is taking shots at my behavior specialist in the Autism Waiver of PA about that whole thing that he said about “unstable” behavior. Unstable behavior? Really? Oh fucking really? Oh fucking really? When I show real emotions, it’s “unstable?” What, are we in fucking kindergarten? I hate that fucking weasel called my behavioral specialist!
Nothing I do matters for shit! NOTHING! Jacking off can’t the fact that I am a fucking virgin that will never get any, and the rest of the world that has its shit together and loves itself, shits on me for being a goddamned virgin that get even get a girl to look at it! None of the rest of the world gives a fuck about me! NO ONE! NO ONE! Even those who have claimed to “care” for me, when they really do not? A pity party when I’m upset and can’t control myself? A pity party and these fucking macho men know what they’re doing and they’re never sad? A pity party and I try to change my perspective and my fucking staff ignores me at my group home!
Even if I got some from some girl, I’d still be unhappy! I am just destroyed as an asshole by the real assholes out on the fucking internet! They’re flinching because I use some real “bad” language to express it? HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL, THEN? HOW in the fucking hell am I supposed to live? BE happy and lie to myself all the time and tell me things that are never true and live in a total lie?
HOW IN THE FUCK AM I “SUPPOSED” TO FEEL? I hate the MTV show Daria! It is such a bunch of bullshit! I had to live with the constant drama of my real girlfriend, named Daria from Russia who looked like and a lot of the same mannerisms as the MTV cartoon character! I had to put up with her bullshit every day! Now, I have to put up with the staff’s bullshit? Their fucking drama!
Those sexually-active macho types just sit there and mock me and “pretend” to care, when they do not! They do not give a single fuck! Even the group home that are supposed to “care” really do not at all? Life is everything wrong when you’re a fucking virgin and everyone else is not one and they always get some! Why don’t those fucking feminist cunts come within a foot of me? I’ll knock them on their starving asses! I don’t motherfucking get it! If these “girls” have boyfriends and they can’t even eat without throwing up or eat at all, and they’re skinny as twigs and I’m fatter than Jabba the Hutt! WHAT THE FUCK? I’m a neckbeard? Really? A bitter male that complains too much and never gets any? Hey bitch, why don’t you get off your fucking computer monitor or phone that you are behind and say it to my face? I don’t give a single shit if you’re better than me, you sneering little bitches! Fuck you incels and feminists! You two have so much in common, it ain’t even funny! One, you’re all “sexually experienced” and all I do is jack off all day and never get any because I am so goddamned upset that I can’t even take a simple daily shower? I am criticized for using online dating sites because I’m told that I won’t find the love of my life with them! What the fuck? What the holy motherfuck? You sexually active married and non-virgin types really know how to socialize like a butterfly! Sex is just fucking easy for you, isn’t it? How about I fucking take my own life? I don’t matter and never have since 1989!
Oh and it’s not “sexism” when you shit all over a white straight male like me? I’m sorry, I’m just the wrong skin color, aren’t it? Wrong gender, too? Yep! That’s me! I’ll show them REAL sexism, like the kind in Iran! Then they’ll see that their workers’ feminist paradise called “Russia” is just as sexist, if not more so than Iran could ever be, hell more than North Korea!
They “love” themselves, right? Sure! And I’m the fucking king of England! How the motherfuck is this shit even possible? What the fuck is this world coming to? The rest of the non-virgin world laughs at my pathetic attempts to be a “normal” person!